i fell down hard again as i walked back home. i duno whats in my mind. somehow i realise i was alone again. nobody was there to hold me up. i stood up all by myself n walked back home. i know u were hiding behind the wall. or should i say i hope u were behind the wall. at least i know i wasnt alone when going home. had to deal with those crawling cockroaches alone. i felt pathetic at that moment. i detest them. like, i didnt hate them as much as i was with u back then. alright.flower cheers me up. a picture will do. see, i can make myself happy. thats what u wan me to be, isnt it? Look at these photos, u could see my smile. The good thing about these photos is that my smile stays there all the time. jeffrey, stop playing the beautiful girl song. i'm allergic to that song.
just wanna stay longer with u my dear Father. as i soaked my bed with tears that night, i felt ur presence n i saw ur light. u put ur arms around me and said, u silly girl, i'm always here for u. how to hide these warm tears from u? thank you for the angels. they have been protecting me well. oh God, i don wanna let go ur hand, the hand which gives absolute peace and security. ur love shows me that the world isnt that bad after all. people arent as evil as i thought. they're just dunno what they r doing. what a wonderful night. bless me with stars to stop these overflowing tears. just wanna dwell in the altar longer. sweet aroma. flowing of Spirit. shower me with abundance of love. how great is our God, sing with me. if sky is the limitation, u're that great my abba Father. if ocean is the limitation, ur love for us is just so deep, so deep. Hold me close oce again like that night n sing in the joyful tears.
